I did an audit of my social media usage for the last 24 hours and saw that I read over 200 messages, not to mention hundreds of posts, which is now normal for me.
I have been thinking about what impact this has on my mental health and my children; I realized that I have not played a guitar for a year or read a novel for two years. I also noticed that my children now have to call for me four or five times before I notice them, I check my phone at night and in the morning, in church, in court and while I read bedtime stories.
I asked myself
- does this make me happier than I used to be? Does it reduce my stress and anxiety?Does it make me a good father?
The answer is no.
I have enjoyed many witty and clever conversations, made social arrangements and shared many, many funny GIFs. Unfortunately, I have come to the conclusion that this does not make up for the harm that my social media use causes and also that I cannot isolate the bad from the good.
I have seen so many of my dearest and closest friends and family struggle with mental ill health and I think that is only sensible to reduce our own vulnerability.
I have therefore decided to leave all social media apps and social games with immediate effect.
I thought about some kind of staged or partial reduction in use, but I have no confidence that this will be achievable and will encourage me to add just one more group or check for notifications just once more.
I’m really sorry if this causes any confusion or inconvenience.
In terms of the game, I have had the most stupendous time.
In a ratio of money spent to fun had, I am confident that I’m a contender for World Champion.
Thank you to everyone for your kind words, encouragement and friendship.
I hope my stories, poems and dictionary are enjoyed for many months to come.