Dearest @Jedon writing through tears your post made me so happy.
I pray that the Lord will continue to reveal Himself to you, and that you will know how deep and high and wide and long His love is for you. While your life sounds blissful, I know the closer we get to God, the more complicated life becomes and the spiritual battle can be strong. I will pray that you have His peace and protection so you can use your time well. Blessings as you learn so many new things & bless others!!!
Since we don’t know when you will be able to check in again, Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!! Peace, joy & love to you, your family, and the monastery!!!