Listening choirs, gaming is on, grabbing a drink…
That’s how it started here. I love this game and all my friends try this. Small community, so close and all in same state of mind.
F*** also. I’m here because I can’t coop my loss tbh. The friends are real, truly real, thanks for letting me weep.
It’s hard saying to yourself you’re a drunk ahole, that’s what I am. Drinking at 7 am is common then just start the game. Before you judging, no offense, had 3 coffee already since I’m awake by 5 am.
When do you admit you’re an alcoholic? Well I never did. Very good in hiding.
Never had a perfect life, but it all started in 2015 when losing my entire life. My daughter died.
After that I did everything wrong just not to coop or feel anything. Being incaserated by false accusations for 8 months. When you’re a clean addict, structure is awesome, perfect bmi. Being there was perfection for me. I was writing my boy in US, shaping my body like a 18 yo. They just don’t teach you how to coop…
When I was 6 months beyond bars my paps died. Lungcancer. I could go for a quick goodbye, 30 minutes, same in Nerherlands as global, you’re in jail so fk you… while I had his voice of the day before in my head; I love you, where are you, I’m going to my granddaughter… long story short.
Losing my only kiddo and my paps, there’s always a dude telling you to coop… When you’re locked up and bashed to numb, glad he was there to prove not all mankind is fkepup…
I hit 40 2 months ago and only can deal life by gaming and drinking… tears are in music, choirs and Gym Class Heroes.
Keep fighting, there’s only 1 life. We’ve no help in Netherlands for addicts, community is here for.