Actually I’m okay as long as I have my girlfriend, we’ve been together through thick and thin, and she is literally the light of my life. My biggest fear is losing her (no our relationship isn’t in trouble or anything like that, I just can’t imagine what I would do if something were to happen to her). I usually just lean on her when I’m feeling bad, but she’s got her own problems, I don’t think it’s fair to put all the burden on her, so I come here to ■■■■■ and moan about blah blah stupid terrible summons got another ■■■■■■■ Kailani are you serious, thanks for nothing SG, etc. etc. No I’m not swiping my card any more, it’s already nearly maxed out and I don’t have enough money coming in right now as it is…
I know I’m not the only one who has lost loved ones and felt alone in the world. I consider myself blessed that I’m not alone. I shouldn’t be wasting my time venting online, my sweetie knows when I’m feeling down. I try to hide it but she knows me too well. I just hate laying my problems on her, when she has gone through so much herself, I’m supposed to be stronger than that. I tell myself it’s okay, I’ll just play some games to take my mind off of stuff, and if the games make me mad, I’ll go online and post some rants about it, get it out of my system. Maybe post some jokes, hope to get a few laughs. Laugh it off, walk it off. It’s just a game, anyway.
I keep telling myself that, referring to both video games and life itself. It’s just a game. It’s just RNG. It’s not personal. The universe itself doesn’t hate me, it hates everyone equally. Someone has to get dealt a bad hand.
… and it’s stupid for me to complain. There are millions of people who have it a lot worse than me. You really want to help me? Go out and help someone who really needs it. The homeless, the sick, the hungry. I’m not dying, yet (at least not that I know of). The ones I’ve lost are already gone and there’s nothing I or anyone else can do to get them back. I still have the most important person in my life, E. my Forever Valentine, til death do us part. As long as I still have her, I’m not going anywhere. I may not be able to summon a good E&P hero to save my life, but I somehow managed to summon the most amazing life partner that anyone could ever hope for. So in that respect, I’m probably one of the luckiest people alive. I’d go through all the misery of my life 1000x over again to be with her.
Uh… yeah… got a little sappy there… sorry 'bout that…
Man these freakin summons are terribad. And what’s up with putting costume chamber up at the same time as Mount Umber? Do they think I’m just growing world flags on trees over here or what??? Then watch, the whole next week there won’t be a single quest worth doing. Typical.